I: My beloved is called an inconceivable beast, a spectacle diagnosed with teratoid genitalia, a chaos of pronouns, a body breaking the rules. Hair & suture & unexpected timbre, outside the map. My beloved is first in the firing line. In the active shooter drill, given no refuge. We are expunged from curricula, disallowed the toilet’s relief. Fascistic tendencies festering. National evangelism of binaries taken as daily bread.
My father said to me once your only choices are the factories. Oil stains or the selfsame bruises. No longings for the night. Looking back I think of things I could have done differently ... Sure, it could have all been different, but what’s the use now, when all...
Oh, don’t worry, we will let our hair down tonight— but first we must remember on this stage, the queen we lost, who they killed not too far from here just...